Changes and Fleeting Moments
While the dark is subsiding in Copenhagen as spring is approaching, this past week has been the coldest here so far with temperatures lingering around 15 degrees Fahrenheit.
I never thought that this moment would come so soon. It's now March, which means that as of right now I have just over two months left of living in Copenhagen. Most of you know that this experience has without a doubt changed every aspect of the person I have become - it has been the biggest challenge but also the greatest adventure of my entire life. Time flies. It really truly does.
I look back at August of 2017 and everything was different. I was an excited, ambitious girl with a suitcase full of clothes and a mind without expectations. If I knew what I would have been through now, then I would have laughed in your face. I have always told I am an old soul, but I feel aged beyond my years in so many different ways. Everything about me has changed - the way I think, the way that I see the world, how I interact with people. Instead of resisting this change, I am proud of the strong, independent young woman that I have become these past seven months because I have not resisted change. Every single thing that I have experienced I have embraced it with an open mind and an open heart, knowing that it would contribute to the globally centered person that I want to become. That's the biggest tip I can give to anyone moving abroad - do not resist change. Change is terrifying and very uncomfortable. But the way you change will make you ten times the person you were before and 100 times the person you ever thought you would be. Trust the process. And when they tell you that everything will work out how it should this is the truth. Look at me, one year ago if you told me that I would be where I am I would have laughed in your face. It wasn't that I knew where I wanted to be because truly I had no idea where I was going to end up - but I never could have even fathomed the experiences I have had, the knowledge that I have gained or the people that I have met. This experience has been incredible and I am forever grateful for the process, no matter how much I want to throw in the towel and call it quits.
With that in mind, I am still coming to terms with the fact that my time in Copenhagen is fleeting. I think it's best to say that I am based out of Copenhagen right now because these next few months are going to be packed with travel. This past weekend I went to Spain (more on that to come!) which started the spiral of non stop movement and plane rides until August. Tomorrow I go to Morocco, two weeks later I go to France, then back to back Austria, Germany, Scotland and a trip to the Netherlands on my final weekend of being in Copenhagen. Then I go back to the USA for two weeks before moving to France until mid July which then afterwards I plan on a week of unwinding in Spain and Morocco before popping over to London for a weekend before flying home for my yoga teacher training in New York. After that ... real college.
Life is going to be non-stop ... which sometimes makes me wonder when the heck I am even going to find time to sleep or eat or journal. However chaotic it is right now, through my meditation I have found grace in the moment which I have right now because no matter how big or how small the moment is ... it is precious because each moment is unique and will not last forever.
This is the somewhat melancholic yet at the same time beautifully empowering outlook that I have created on life.
This is why I have dedicated my life to adventure, to connection, to helping others because I find beauty in each fleeting moment. Which is my YES, to show up to everything with 110% of my being and leave nothing behind.
Eat the freaking pasta. Buy the dress. Get the tattoo (oops:). Do homework. Study hard. Love hard. Leave nothing behind. I want to live a life where I don't want to be left wondering what I could have done how how things could have been. I want to live a life where I can say I'm proud to have had that moment and no matter what the outcome was. I want to be proud of myself for showing up.